Usually people get a kick out of this blog than my other one because well I am way too blunt and honest. That is me though. The girl with no filter.
This year has had its ups and downs. More downs than ups but hoping to end the year with a lot of positive changes. I'm still really sad that I had to turn down such an amazing opportunity to move out to Colorado. So much for a fresh start, right?
To overcome obstacles in life usually people try to find a new way to have a fresh start so they can truly start over. Colorado was mine...and now its not here. Luckily with my skill set I will find something amazing but I definitely don't like the idea of being stuck here in Ohio even for a few more days.
When relationships take a hit....it takes a huge hit on your personality. I got hit hard. A secret that was kept from me for three years from one of the most respected and loved person I know. When that came out.... I found myself completely and utterly broken. I'm still not fixed. I have no idea how to get fixed.
I was betrayed not only by my husband but also my former best friend. The former best friend told my husband lies about me to basically try end my marriage. Honestly if i would have found out then what had happened it probably would have.
Lies and deception get you no where. Especially with me. I'm still looking I guess for some type of revenge because with Karma.....I'm way too damn inpatient. I'm trying really hard to find a way to live my life without knowing what I know...and with what happened happened afterwards. I made my mistakes too, but it was because of this secret. I would have never done some of things I did if I would have known. My whole world would be different today. That is thing the thing though, you can't change your past no matter how hard you want to. Your past, your present, and your future is what makes you who you are and what you want and will become.
So here I am....stuck in Ohio. I have a good job. The husband is working his butt off to provide for us. The kiddos are growing and challenging me everyday. Lets just say I'm done with summer and counting down is on my list of things for when school starts for everyone. This household definitely needs a schedule again and the kiddos definitely need a wake up call on how to appreciate things. Having five is definitely a challenge but damn it....they are my world and I love them to pieces. <3
I will like to add a few more things to this situation. Friends. You really know who your friends are when you unleash a devastation and looking for help. Haven't heard from some of my closest friends because they are basically picking sides I guess. They would rather be friends with a betraying piece of shit bitch then be loyal to someone they have known a hell of a lot longer. Just sad.
Well... that has been my life here lately. Not pretty. But it is what it is. I'll bounce back soon.....just not ready yet.
xoxo
This year has had its ups and downs. More downs than ups but hoping to end the year with a lot of positive changes. I'm still really sad that I had to turn down such an amazing opportunity to move out to Colorado. So much for a fresh start, right?
To overcome obstacles in life usually people try to find a new way to have a fresh start so they can truly start over. Colorado was mine...and now its not here. Luckily with my skill set I will find something amazing but I definitely don't like the idea of being stuck here in Ohio even for a few more days.
I was betrayed not only by my husband but also my former best friend. The former best friend told my husband lies about me to basically try end my marriage. Honestly if i would have found out then what had happened it probably would have.
Lies and deception get you no where. Especially with me. I'm still looking I guess for some type of revenge because with Karma.....I'm way too damn inpatient. I'm trying really hard to find a way to live my life without knowing what I know...and with what happened happened afterwards. I made my mistakes too, but it was because of this secret. I would have never done some of things I did if I would have known. My whole world would be different today. That is thing the thing though, you can't change your past no matter how hard you want to. Your past, your present, and your future is what makes you who you are and what you want and will become.
So here I am....stuck in Ohio. I have a good job. The husband is working his butt off to provide for us. The kiddos are growing and challenging me everyday. Lets just say I'm done with summer and counting down is on my list of things for when school starts for everyone. This household definitely needs a schedule again and the kiddos definitely need a wake up call on how to appreciate things. Having five is definitely a challenge but damn it....they are my world and I love them to pieces. <3
I will like to add a few more things to this situation. Friends. You really know who your friends are when you unleash a devastation and looking for help. Haven't heard from some of my closest friends because they are basically picking sides I guess. They would rather be friends with a betraying piece of shit bitch then be loyal to someone they have known a hell of a lot longer. Just sad.
Well... that has been my life here lately. Not pretty. But it is what it is. I'll bounce back soon.....just not ready yet.
xoxo
