Hate

Oh Twitter and your randomness. Here I am supposed to be doing schoolwork, but yet come across something that I of course need to make my opinion know about. I'm going to try to make this quick but lets see what comes out.

So I saw on twitter from a person that I'm following saying that, "To truly hate someone, you had to have loved them at one point.". Okay....so lets argue this just a bit.

My personal opinion is Hate is one of the most powerful words to use. It has more meaning sometimes then people give credit for. You have to have done something really bad to get that word to be labeled at you from me. My list is a small one. People on it really truly deserves the word.

So here is an argument to the statement. I HATE Osama Bin Laden. Like truly hate. Now why in the hell would I ever love this man? See...false statement.

I've been personally done wrong by many people. Friends and Family even. I've disliked them to the point where it was close to hating them, but because I actually did care for them....they didn't get the "hate" label. I almost want to go back to one of my last blogs I wrote about Psychology and "certain" people. People do things that we just don't understand sometimes. Should we hate them for it? Why can't it just be disliked?

I think its harder to hate someone that you actually truly cared for and/or loved. People need to stop using these words so loosely. I'm meaning that for both Love and Hate.

Most of the people on my list that I hate, I never loved. I never cared for. Didn't even have a relationship of any sorts of them. I just knew them from what they did. There are only two people on my list that I actually knew, engaged in and allowed to be apart of my life at some point. They are the people that I wouldn't bat an eye if something horrible happened to them or Karma finally found them. Shit...I would grab some popcorn and watch.

So to the Twitter of that comment...I have to disagree with your statement. Unless you have another meaning then what everyone else has for the word Hate, your kinda out numbered.

Psychology and "Certain" people

I've usually been pretty good at reading people and figuring out what kind of person they are. I've also been pretty good on not allowing pretty much anyone get a good read on me. Whenever I actually truly let my guard down and let someone in, I get hurt in the end. Its a never ending cycle.
You can't pick your family but you can choose your friends. Sometimes you have to sell yourself to others to show that your worth a friendship. It works sometimes, but if they are too naive to see it, then they get to miss out.
I used to study psychology because it really truly interested me on how people act the way that they do. That along with socialism you can get a lot from a person in just one conversation. Its neat to see once you understand what your looking at on how everyone is truly different. How our brains deflect different outcomes in same situations. There also those moments still that I can't figure out why people act the way they do or say the things that they say. Especially when I did get a chance to know a little bit about them and then their actions speak differently then what I originally thought. Its frustrating....especially when their actions are hurting me.

I know I'm a good person. I've done a lot of dumb things in my life but I still have value. I still have faith and I have a big heart. When someone that actually got to see those things of me and then neglects those attributes and lies to everyone around them, then I don't get it. I don't understand the psychology of it. I tried to. I looked up everything I possible could in my past studies. I found nothing. The last thing I want to do is just characterize this person to just be plain horrible but at this point its all I got. I got screwed over in more ways then one, treated like a psychopath, left with positive test results that I had to deal with on my own along with the tornado of chaos that cascaded throughout my family. All from one person. One person that I cared for and let my guard down with, did all of this. Before I would say I would take mutual responsibility for certain actions. Now I'm looking at it as 1/3.

I'm probably not making any sense to you all. Unless you know the whole story it wouldn't make sense and I'm not going to get in all the details because well I just don't want to deal with it anymore. I'm done being hurt. I'm done being confused and I'm definitely done being attacked by people that are walking around with lies in their head because their best friend even admitted to me that he was incapable of telling them the truth.

So I'm not going to always understand everything. I'm not always going to have an answer to every question. I get it. I truly do. I'm just trying to move forward but yet a handful of people just won't allow it.

I'm in a good place now. My heart is back to where its supposed to be. My head is getting there. I'm moving forward whether you like it or not. Karma does show its ugly head for those that pester so just remember that "The three amigos."

Drug Seller Dreams

For once I can actually sit here and say things are not going completely horrible.....so that's a plus. Things are not at their best but that is all changing. Each day there is something different to achieve so there isn't anything slowing me down.
I knew I always wanted to do something with my life. I wanted to have more of a purpose than to just be a mother. Not that it is a bad thing to be a mother. So please don't take it like that. I love my kids. More than you all would ever know. I just feel that in order for me to be the best mother I can be is to show my kids that you should never give up on your dream no matter what is thrown your way throughout life. Have a goal and stick with it. ALWAYS follow through and you will get there one day.
I may still be on my journey but it took me awhile to formulate my game plan. I'm still adjusting it here and there but its pretty solid. When I first started working in Pharmacy, I knew I fell in love. I love the drugs, the formulations, the math, the chemistry, the involvement of saving a life and/or making a difference for a patient. Its an awesome feeling to be apart of something that I love and get paid to do it. I've progressed over the years with numerous certifications, licenses and boards to hit now the highest point I could reach as a Pharmaceutical Specialist. Its time for a lateral move to get my foot in the door with a Pharmaceutical company to later be apart of product development and consultation. Unfortunately I have to go the route of Sales first...which isn't really a bad thing. Legally selling drugs for a living? My sheriff of a Mother will get a kick out that...haha. Plus the pay grade isn't bad at all. Sure, give me a company car and six figure income with multiple bonuses a year. That's cool. ;) Who knows, I may love that too and stay with that....but still my heart goes to the research and development. I have to add some more school under my belt but that's okay. If that means I would be a scientist for the top pharmaceutical company in the world then hell yes! That's my dream and my goal. Its going to happen. I'll prove it to you.

The Queef

Okay..here is an interesting topic. Embarrassing shit happens all the time. The last thing we want is one less thing to worry about when we are having sex with someone. We are already freaked out by how we look naked.....Guys are hoping they are big enough...girls are hoping they are small enough. So lets add another thing. You know about it. It may even make you laugh your ass off like it does me So what the hell am I talking about? The Queef. Thats right....the Queef. 

But you know something? Guys can't do it....so they are freaked out by it, which on the other hand makes us girls feel even weirder about it. So what do you do if it happens? How do you not lose that awesome sexiness that got you all naked in the first place?

So I'm a little different maybe from other people, but I actually know when its going to happen. It happens when your switching positions a lot....mostly from a long period of the doggy to the missionary. I personally can do this little wiggle to adjust my hips and balance out that pressure that is going on before he re-enters.


But sometimes there's nothing that can be done about it, and I can't get control of it, and it's unstoppable and seemingly goes on forever. And then when I think it's stopped, some more squeaks out. I know in my head that it's stupid to be embarrassed about it, but when you're fucking someone for the first time, and your vagina is performing a symphony, it's kinda hard to not cringe with your whole being.

Laughing is always the best medicine...it actually may make the sound effects even louder but oh well. Its a natural occurrence that really means the guy did a pretty damn good job. If you ignore it...things get awkward...you don't want to lose your evening or worse...like round two.

Yuengling

Its been officialized. Yuengling has a designated distributer for Columbus, OH. I knew that Hill Distributing Company wanted it bad. Superior Beverage wanted it too. The best got it though and we all know who that is. Columbus Distributing will now be housing my favorite beer in the world and I can't wait. They are still looking at an October release for it to be on store shelves so its definitely exciting.

Yuengling wasn't introduced to me until about 4 years ago. When it was though...boy did it hit the spot! I actually never really was a beer drinker until I started with Yuengling. The bad thing about loving this beer was that it wasn't available in Ohio. So we were stuck with the point of making field trips out of state to stock up on our favorite brew. Its lead to a lot of good times and awesome as a Christmas present but now it will be right down the road for me to get. I will never go through withdrawl and craving fixes and have to drive 3 hours for a fix. Its definitely a good thing for sure.

As far as I am aware for the whole state of Ohio, Yuengling combined only with those that distributed Budweiser products. So for us in Columbus, Columbus Distributing will take of us and then I think its Majestic for up North. Either way they did good with their selection process. Yuengling stuck with a great company to work with to sell this delicious brew. A union based and team oriented company should get the honor, so I'm thrilled that they did.

So this football season...that is if I'm still in Ohio, I will always be enjoying Yuengling and I won't have to go far to get it. The is not just good news.....ITS GREAT! ;)

Not Guilty

So....a big verdict was read today. My boss actually pulled me aside to sit and watch it. Lately anymore I really don't watch the television because I really don't have time for it nor do I care to see how many shootings or robberies or just all around dumb stuff going on. Give me a weather report and traffic and I'm good to go. If I need info then I have twitter or I can google or catch something interesting on CNN. So I have heard of the case in question...heard the gruesome story how a little girl lost her life.....now I get to hear and see how much people are mortified that a verdict of not guilty was read.
Me personally, I don't know if this woman did it. I didn't spend my free time following around CSI detectives or have weekly phone chats with the family. A little girl died and someone did it.
Everyday there is a court session or trial that gets thrown out because of the laws we have in place to protect us. We are sitting at a view point that really nobody for sure knows what happened exactly or it would have been presented in this trial. So sorry to say it but shut up already.
Pray for this little girl, pray that the killer will be brought to justice....but quit bitching about the laws we instilled to keep bad people in jail and good ones out. Did the system fail? Maybe...but that court case couldn't prove that this mother for sure beyond unreasonable doubt killed her. Case closed.
I'm a mother. I can't imagine anything happening to my children and the thought of knowing that parents kill their kids is just disgusting. I still remember one night I was watching the news and a story was being a released that a mother drowned her kids in a bath tub because Satan or God told her to. I got up and ran to the bathroom and puked. It's horrible. It breaks my heart. Children are the most precious gifts in life and A LOT of people take advantage of it.
We can't do anything about this verdict. Complaining about it or our judicial system isn't going to get you anywhere either. Trust me. I've been fighting with Senators and Governors for years now advocating for my child and other kids and just can't win.

So if you know something the judge and these jury members and of course the media doesn't know? ......then spill it. Otherwise mourn that little girl. Hold your kids close. Look out for other kids so they have extra eyes to keep them safe. That's what you can do.



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Goals and Challenges

So what challenges you? Is it just that you want to go after something you want? Is it an actual thing that you instilled in your head, or is it that someone said you can't do it...so by golly your just have to?

Challenges are faced whether or not you created them yourself. Its another fun thing apart of life that we deal with on a daily basis. My challenge today is to get enough energy to put some make-up on and go to the store....on a holiday weekend. That's a big challenge! Right now the only motivation I have is that fact that we have no milk. We have beer...but no milk. At least we have the beer right?

Often when people are faced with difficult or stressful situations, they’re left wondering how to deal with them. Sometimes the negative emotions from these situations can feel overwhelming, and solutions seem elusive. However, the challenging situations we face in life are often the ones that offer us the greatest opportunity for personal growth. Even though the question of how to deal with the challenges we face doesn’t always have a simple or easy answer, looking honestly at our situations, experiencing the emotions they bring up, and searching within ourselves for the answers can bring often-surprising positive outcomes.

So make a list. Make it your Challenge list or just plain and simple goals. Set a time frame too to complete them. Mark each thing off when you complete it. Seeing the results will be more uplifting then what you will think. So, you have a list that includes to take out the trash. You did it. You checked it off your list. Guess what? You accomplished something! Whether or not you do a million things a day or just one or two, just do something. challenge yourself. Be goal orientated. Believe it or not it will boost your ego and self esteem and may put in in better situations that you never thought you would be in just because you productive and being a go-getter. 

So its a holiday weekend. Did you mow the lawn? Did you go to the store? Did you go out of your way to pay it forward to someone today? Well looks like you have a lot to do today....as do I.

Enjoy your Holiday weekend and be safe! Best wishes as always. ;)

Social Media

I'm starting to question the life patterns of those that get wrapped up in social media. You set yourself up, you put your whole life out there for everyone to see and read and to be involved in your life whether or not they are even physically even able to be.

The outlet of course is good to reconnect with friends you haven't talked to you or seen in a very long time. Its even helpful to be able to stay in touch with friends and family that may live across the world from you. Facebook is an opportunity to do real time with status's and photos. You get to be involved and in touch.

Then you have a negative side to it. Somebody may come across someone that they thought was cute and was following them to see that things have been pretty shitty in their life and it looks like a chance to get involved. Next thing you know people are cheating on their boyfriends/girlfriends/spouses because someone saw that someone was in need of attention. It happens daily.

The next thing you know, there is drama, friends lists are depleting...your being blocked by people that have no reason to.....its just a hot mess. Then these people get a kick of defamation of character all over the internet.  Its not a good spot to be in...but being on, Facebook, Myspace, LinkIN, Google+, FourSquare, Untappd.com, and Twitter, you put yourself in that position.

You need to think before you speak...watch what you say and post because if you piss one person off then the whole world will know about it before you even do. Sometimes things happen with only with a certain intention but another person will look at it differently and blow it out of proportion.  I say this because I recently set up a LinkIN account. I'm trying to move across the US to Colorado for work and I wanted my resume and my connections to help me. Well.....it decided to send notifications to EVERYONE that I ever had in my Google mail account so now quite a few people got an invite that I really didn't want to. Especially one person...which of course threw a hissy fit and is now blasting "I'm creepy". Geez...you can't win you know? This same person of course started calling around notifying people that I like his media site on facebook.....only did because I needed a name from it. I can give two shits about this person's website let alone the person but no...he has to go around saying I'm a stalker or what not.

Its hard to get rid of people when you have allowed them at one point of your life to be involved in it. You have to watch what you say or they will post something about you....or hell let loose some pictures and videos to embarrass you. So needless to say.....people just suck. When it comes down to it, everyone is only out for themselves. You kinda have to be.

Now in closing.....anyone want to send me a google+ invite that they may have extra? I have some invites to some other sites that are not released to the public yet for trade. ;)

Maybe I shouldn't close just yet. Here is a lesson: Love Social Media. Its a great way to connect, be connected and get your name out there in ways that can impact a lot of people. You have something to offer, then deliver it....positively. Just be fair warned that there will always be someone out to defame you and you just have to be prepared for that.