I'm getting yelled at for not blogging. I take it as a good sign?? lol I really miss writing. Been really busy and too tired to put sentences together. Plus the fact that I have to sit in my office versus lounging on my big comfy couch with the laptop has been putting a damper on things too. My laptop as taken a dive to well...not wanting to work. Its old anyways. Need to invest in a new one but my current budget isn't very friendly lately....plus I'm looking only at iMac's so it may be awhile to fit that in.
This month is a little rough but a nice fresh outlook to what lies ahead. I'm glad that 2011 is finally the past....just need to get through this month to officially have everything in the past. I can't help but wonder if a certain someone would even know what would have happened this month or not. I'm past the point of wanting it to matter let alone mean anything. Its a trial and tribulation of my life and I'm thankful the husband has done everything and anything to distract from it. Its just still a dark cloud and it sucks.
I've always been that type of person that can relate a moment and/or thought to a song, a date, or even a food. Lemon drops remind me of my first date with Joe. I had a mass supply of them in my purse for some reason and they spilled all over the floor with Joe laughing at me for having so many in my possession. Now, lemon drops bring me back to that day and the moment with vivid memory. In a way it doesn't make sense because I forget about something that happened fifteen minutes ago but remember events and people like a cheat sheet on the back of my hand. The reason I brought this up was just to relate to the fact of no matter how we want to move forward and forget what we did in the past, moments will slip in and hit you off guard and those feelings of pain or happiness will be there. At least that is the way it works for me.
Enough about all that now......here is an update of positiveness. Throughout my facebook I've shared numerous times of my job hunt. I do still have a job. A great job....which I love my job but its time to move forward. Plus it helps with a boost from the fact that our surgery count is so low that my hours are being cut like firewood ready to be thrown in a fire that is almost out. I've been telling headhunters that have been helping me find the right position to not just find me a job. They have to find something that will be something that I would like and it has to make sense for my career path. I've had tons of friends and colleagues tell me about positions that maybe hiring for but its almost an insult to take a job that would label me as taking two steps backwards. I don't want that and I definitely do not need that. Thank heavens the pharmacy sales job interviews are coming my way. I'm super excited about them and its definitely the direction I want to take. People keep telling me that its a hard job to even manage and to look at something else. Honestly....shut the fuck up. Plain and simple. Just because you know someone that maybe a rep, doesn't mean you know the business let alone how I will handle it. Pharmaceuticals has been my life and I've been building a portfolio over the years of connections because I knew my career would eventually take me to this point. I just wish people would just support me instead of saying something negative about what I chose to do. That goes with everything too. Some people think that the military is out of the question for me. Keep thinking that. I'm just done talking about it because well everyone I pretty much have shared my joy and passion of it doesn't support it so they are just counted as another person that won't know when that happens for me. It is what it is and they made it that way.
So that is a little bit of what has been going on lately. Next blog will be filled of some pictures and the story of Joe's and mine hunting trip we took over the weekend. We had fun.
Until next time....... xoxo
This month is a little rough but a nice fresh outlook to what lies ahead. I'm glad that 2011 is finally the past....just need to get through this month to officially have everything in the past. I can't help but wonder if a certain someone would even know what would have happened this month or not. I'm past the point of wanting it to matter let alone mean anything. Its a trial and tribulation of my life and I'm thankful the husband has done everything and anything to distract from it. Its just still a dark cloud and it sucks.
I've always been that type of person that can relate a moment and/or thought to a song, a date, or even a food. Lemon drops remind me of my first date with Joe. I had a mass supply of them in my purse for some reason and they spilled all over the floor with Joe laughing at me for having so many in my possession. Now, lemon drops bring me back to that day and the moment with vivid memory. In a way it doesn't make sense because I forget about something that happened fifteen minutes ago but remember events and people like a cheat sheet on the back of my hand. The reason I brought this up was just to relate to the fact of no matter how we want to move forward and forget what we did in the past, moments will slip in and hit you off guard and those feelings of pain or happiness will be there. At least that is the way it works for me.
Enough about all that now......here is an update of positiveness. Throughout my facebook I've shared numerous times of my job hunt. I do still have a job. A great job....which I love my job but its time to move forward. Plus it helps with a boost from the fact that our surgery count is so low that my hours are being cut like firewood ready to be thrown in a fire that is almost out. I've been telling headhunters that have been helping me find the right position to not just find me a job. They have to find something that will be something that I would like and it has to make sense for my career path. I've had tons of friends and colleagues tell me about positions that maybe hiring for but its almost an insult to take a job that would label me as taking two steps backwards. I don't want that and I definitely do not need that. Thank heavens the pharmacy sales job interviews are coming my way. I'm super excited about them and its definitely the direction I want to take. People keep telling me that its a hard job to even manage and to look at something else. Honestly....shut the fuck up. Plain and simple. Just because you know someone that maybe a rep, doesn't mean you know the business let alone how I will handle it. Pharmaceuticals has been my life and I've been building a portfolio over the years of connections because I knew my career would eventually take me to this point. I just wish people would just support me instead of saying something negative about what I chose to do. That goes with everything too. Some people think that the military is out of the question for me. Keep thinking that. I'm just done talking about it because well everyone I pretty much have shared my joy and passion of it doesn't support it so they are just counted as another person that won't know when that happens for me. It is what it is and they made it that way.
So that is a little bit of what has been going on lately. Next blog will be filled of some pictures and the story of Joe's and mine hunting trip we took over the weekend. We had fun.
Until next time....... xoxo
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