Last time I wrote on this blog, it was a very hard one to write. I really have stayed away from writing my feelings or what is happening because even when I share just a little it tears me apart or blows up. With my other blog, things seem to be easier. Yes, I still throw my strong-minded opinion, but with Life Dosing Drugs blog, its more in medical awareness and such. It doesn't always have to personal.
Over the years, I haven't been a mute. Just wasn't my nature. No transparency. It isn't the fact that I just share everything and anything, it was my own sense of therapy. Writing it out and hitting publish was my equivalent to screaming as loud as I can to get everything out on top of a mountain. I lost that part of me for awhile. Still not 100% back to who I used to be, but I will take that as a good thing.
I'm not the only one in the world having hardships that vary like a dramatic soap opera. Maybe because I was named after a chick on a soap opera is the reason why my life plays out like one? Who knows. Some people think I like drama and I need the attention in order to be who I am. That is the furthest from the truth. I'm just a girl that loves to write. Sometimes my writing not only helps me, but it helps others. When I was in high school, I was on the school newspaper and poetry classes plus advance English courses. I know my grammar isn't the best but it is a passion I have always had. I dreamed that I would be a writer when I graduated. Never even thought of science/pharmaceutical/medical world that I lust in now. You can have many passions. I've had my blogs published, sued, and read by people all over the world and have made a difference. A dream come true. Even published in a few books and currently working on a book now that a publisher has made a deal with me for.
With highlights in life there are and will ever be those downsides. Its a new year. 2013 hated me for sure. 2014, I'm not sure yet. So far there isn't a change from the previous. A lot of things still suck....like a lot. One good thing on the horizon is that we will be moving for sure, no if's, and's or but's about it. So the road to Colorado is back on the board. I will finally know how my sister feels soon when we do move. To be gone from everyone and everything that I have ever known. It is a scary feeling but in the same sense it is time to grow the fuck up and learn how to handle everything and anything on my own. I've been dependent on people my whole life to get through it and it needs to stop. I have my husband and my kiddos and we will and can do this. It will be a very different life but I think for us it is something we all need.
Now to other news. I really despise Obama. Lol.... okay so why is he not impeached yet? He sucks in so many ways I can't even count that high. I have to stay OUT of school because he changed the rules on student loans/grants. Funny in that sense he was acting more like a Republican with that change than a Democrat would. So basically if you have a huge trust-fund you can go to school. If you don't, gotta pay outta of pocket for awhile to see if your even worthy of a government grant even though you qualify. Asshat. Asshat. Asshat. Yes I just pulled a Sheldon. It pisses me off.
Let's see what else? Ummm, I had both my knees surgically done last year and tomorrow I get to have my left one done again. Really annoyed with having to deal with this outcome when the surgeries were supposed to help me not make me in pain every time I take a damn step. I haven't worn my precious heels in so long I will probably have to teach myself how to walk in them all over again when I'm finally allowed too!!!!
Plus I've been back at Mt. Carmel East Hospital for a short-time now for a contract. Kinda weird being back to the place I started my pharmacy career so many years ago but I will definitely miss it. My contract will end at the end of this month. Well I think it will. I believe I will have all their new hires trained and ready to go by then unless they hire more. Time is also coming up for me to renew my pharmacy license and I am still needing to complete a lot CE's. (Continuing Education). When you have a medical license in anything, you have to have so many hours done to complete your renewal. I have two months left to hurry it up but still waiting on the site that does the CE's to let me complete them. Always waiting on something.
So there is an update on me. I will try to write more than once a year again, I promise. :)
xoxo
Over the years, I haven't been a mute. Just wasn't my nature. No transparency. It isn't the fact that I just share everything and anything, it was my own sense of therapy. Writing it out and hitting publish was my equivalent to screaming as loud as I can to get everything out on top of a mountain. I lost that part of me for awhile. Still not 100% back to who I used to be, but I will take that as a good thing.
I'm not the only one in the world having hardships that vary like a dramatic soap opera. Maybe because I was named after a chick on a soap opera is the reason why my life plays out like one? Who knows. Some people think I like drama and I need the attention in order to be who I am. That is the furthest from the truth. I'm just a girl that loves to write. Sometimes my writing not only helps me, but it helps others. When I was in high school, I was on the school newspaper and poetry classes plus advance English courses. I know my grammar isn't the best but it is a passion I have always had. I dreamed that I would be a writer when I graduated. Never even thought of science/pharmaceutical/medical world that I lust in now. You can have many passions. I've had my blogs published, sued, and read by people all over the world and have made a difference. A dream come true. Even published in a few books and currently working on a book now that a publisher has made a deal with me for.
With highlights in life there are and will ever be those downsides. Its a new year. 2013 hated me for sure. 2014, I'm not sure yet. So far there isn't a change from the previous. A lot of things still suck....like a lot. One good thing on the horizon is that we will be moving for sure, no if's, and's or but's about it. So the road to Colorado is back on the board. I will finally know how my sister feels soon when we do move. To be gone from everyone and everything that I have ever known. It is a scary feeling but in the same sense it is time to grow the fuck up and learn how to handle everything and anything on my own. I've been dependent on people my whole life to get through it and it needs to stop. I have my husband and my kiddos and we will and can do this. It will be a very different life but I think for us it is something we all need.
Now to other news. I really despise Obama. Lol.... okay so why is he not impeached yet? He sucks in so many ways I can't even count that high. I have to stay OUT of school because he changed the rules on student loans/grants. Funny in that sense he was acting more like a Republican with that change than a Democrat would. So basically if you have a huge trust-fund you can go to school. If you don't, gotta pay outta of pocket for awhile to see if your even worthy of a government grant even though you qualify. Asshat. Asshat. Asshat. Yes I just pulled a Sheldon. It pisses me off.
Let's see what else? Ummm, I had both my knees surgically done last year and tomorrow I get to have my left one done again. Really annoyed with having to deal with this outcome when the surgeries were supposed to help me not make me in pain every time I take a damn step. I haven't worn my precious heels in so long I will probably have to teach myself how to walk in them all over again when I'm finally allowed too!!!!
Plus I've been back at Mt. Carmel East Hospital for a short-time now for a contract. Kinda weird being back to the place I started my pharmacy career so many years ago but I will definitely miss it. My contract will end at the end of this month. Well I think it will. I believe I will have all their new hires trained and ready to go by then unless they hire more. Time is also coming up for me to renew my pharmacy license and I am still needing to complete a lot CE's. (Continuing Education). When you have a medical license in anything, you have to have so many hours done to complete your renewal. I have two months left to hurry it up but still waiting on the site that does the CE's to let me complete them. Always waiting on something.
So there is an update on me. I will try to write more than once a year again, I promise. :)
xoxo
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