So many changes. So many trials and tribulations. Life isn't easy. I get it. But give this girl a freaking break already!!!
Every time I create a plan and pathway, it gets crumbled or blocked. I have a pretty good setup now of a plan in progress this time around. I pray it doesn't crumble. The house is on the market, lots of showings so far. I'm probably going to just accept the first offer so I can finally get out of this cursed forsaken house. A house is a home that you are supposed to love not hate. There is just so many bad memories in this house that I just want nothing to do with it anymore. Plus being a Pharmacologist, the job opportunities here in Ohio are very vague. I'm either too qualified or don't have the Doctor title yet to do something even though I am qualified. Most of my amazing job offers have come from down south. Most specifically Orlando, Florida area. I still have the love to move to the Colorado area though. The mountains and outdoors and all those fun activities there are still a huge desire to full fill. I'm not sure yet where I'm going, but I know I'm going because I have put the wheels in action. Plus my family is scattering all over the US too. It would be nice to be around some family of course. I would be completely lost without them and I think my kids would be too. Besides my one and only best friend Sarah, I have nothing left here. Nothing to gain from, nothing to get anything out of. The people here and the damage they have caused to my life and to my kids would finally not be something in my face when I go to the grocery store. No more triggers of their demolition. Plus....it will help me not having to restrain myself from doing something stupid to handle my anger with the ones I do where I would end up in jail or something. It still frustrates me how old friends of mine have taken in a person that has completely made the point of ruining everything of me. Not such good people themselves for doing so. But enough about all that. I will be far far away from them and never have to deal with them again. Good fucking riddance.
I'm thrilled my kids are growing up. They have triumphed over things and tackled many obstacles in their young lives and thriving more than ever. God love them! I love their smiles and laughter. Things could be completely horrible for me and then just one look of them and they remind me what my world is truly about. Love and family.
Coming up this month is another obstacle we have to conquer and that is another surgery. Not me this time, but the husband. That mass we found during his last PET scans checking to see if the cancer was back showed his right kidney not functioning properly. A couple weeks ago we did a surgical procedure to test the function of his kidneys to determine what we are going to do next and that is the dissection of the upper part of his right kidney. That big surgery will be the 25th of this month. Once he heals from this surgery, we are hoping that he won't be so sick anymore. He has been so sick for so long and just getting worse so the sooner the better. Hopefully this all we need to do and nothing else will follow it.
Well, that's all for now. If anything else exciting happens I will let you all know. Until then.....
Love always,
Me
xoxoxo
Every time I create a plan and pathway, it gets crumbled or blocked. I have a pretty good setup now of a plan in progress this time around. I pray it doesn't crumble. The house is on the market, lots of showings so far. I'm probably going to just accept the first offer so I can finally get out of this cursed forsaken house. A house is a home that you are supposed to love not hate. There is just so many bad memories in this house that I just want nothing to do with it anymore. Plus being a Pharmacologist, the job opportunities here in Ohio are very vague. I'm either too qualified or don't have the Doctor title yet to do something even though I am qualified. Most of my amazing job offers have come from down south. Most specifically Orlando, Florida area. I still have the love to move to the Colorado area though. The mountains and outdoors and all those fun activities there are still a huge desire to full fill. I'm not sure yet where I'm going, but I know I'm going because I have put the wheels in action. Plus my family is scattering all over the US too. It would be nice to be around some family of course. I would be completely lost without them and I think my kids would be too. Besides my one and only best friend Sarah, I have nothing left here. Nothing to gain from, nothing to get anything out of. The people here and the damage they have caused to my life and to my kids would finally not be something in my face when I go to the grocery store. No more triggers of their demolition. Plus....it will help me not having to restrain myself from doing something stupid to handle my anger with the ones I do where I would end up in jail or something. It still frustrates me how old friends of mine have taken in a person that has completely made the point of ruining everything of me. Not such good people themselves for doing so. But enough about all that. I will be far far away from them and never have to deal with them again. Good fucking riddance.
I'm thrilled my kids are growing up. They have triumphed over things and tackled many obstacles in their young lives and thriving more than ever. God love them! I love their smiles and laughter. Things could be completely horrible for me and then just one look of them and they remind me what my world is truly about. Love and family.
Coming up this month is another obstacle we have to conquer and that is another surgery. Not me this time, but the husband. That mass we found during his last PET scans checking to see if the cancer was back showed his right kidney not functioning properly. A couple weeks ago we did a surgical procedure to test the function of his kidneys to determine what we are going to do next and that is the dissection of the upper part of his right kidney. That big surgery will be the 25th of this month. Once he heals from this surgery, we are hoping that he won't be so sick anymore. He has been so sick for so long and just getting worse so the sooner the better. Hopefully this all we need to do and nothing else will follow it.
Well, that's all for now. If anything else exciting happens I will let you all know. Until then.....
Love always,
Me
xoxoxo
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