Bitch Fest

I know your waiting for my music blog, but of course there has to be something else that has to deter me from writing something powerful to me just bitching.
As most of you have seen already on my Facebook, someone had the audacity to not only send a hurtful message anonymously through my business site, but now has messed with my Facebook postings.
Someone that makes fun at me...whatever. Do what you want. Be jealous or whatever you want to call it. I've worked so hard on changing myself since having FIVE children and why is it wrong for me to keep working on it???
One thing that has been most important to me is my freedom of expression. I write because its second nature. Its apart of me. Most of you seem to appreciate what I have to say and I'm grateful for that. Some of you may not even have ever read anything of what I write which is okay too. I write for me when it comes to this blog. On my other blog, I write for the readers. I may not be the best writer in the world but I do have a lot to say so this is the way I do it. Or you see tons of ramblings on Facebook.

Over the past week, I had to apologize for a status that worried a lot of people. People need to tend to remember that Facebook is a way to express yourself and sometimes things can be taken out of context. That night when I posted what I did, I felt the need to. Just for the moment. I do very much appreciate the concern but I have had probably the worst week, and especially that night to be of ever. I was awaken by a horrible embarrassing situation on top of everything else I was dealing with. I'm not going into detail of what happened, but because I posted three words at 4am, not only did my world change, but also the understanding of my family.

I have family now that wants nothing to do with my Facebook....which is fine. Delete away. I've been trying to filter my life but really haven't had the need to lately because things were going good. I've been happy. Now because of one night that I was too drunk to think to block certain individuals from seeing what I wrote, I will now forever pay for it. Its my doing. My screw-up. I do understand that.

Transparency is something I written about before. You can either share your whole world with everyone, or nothing at all. Me, there is pretty much 95% of the time you get the pure girl. The girl that cusses and flicks off the camera. The girl that will talk shit when she's pissed off. Its who I am. Those of you that can't except it than delete away or just unsubscribe from my updates. That way if your curious on my life then you don't have to see me in your news feed.

I don't want the drama but apparently people fill the need that when things are going good to push their way into a situation that they will never understand. It is what is and I can't change that.

So here I am venting away. I have people that apparently hate me for me and trying to take away things from me that well, guess what? It won't happen. I am me. Stay away from my face book if you don't like what you see. Can't accept me, then disappear. I'm working on building a business on top of building more muscle with an amazing company that I'm more than ecstatic to be apart of....which I will blog on my other blog about here soon.

So that is that. It is what it is. Family or friends....this is me. Take it or leave it.