You live and learn from your mistakes and move forward. Even when triggers are pointed right at you, you keep moving to not have any more interruptions. All this time, I've been trying and trying......and bang. I get hit. Hit so hard I can't breathe and I can't think. I'm full of so much anger I think I may even explode at some point. For the past I don't know how many years, I have thought everything to be my fault. My mistakes. My problems that I need to fix. Now we are all human so there is still a lot I personally have to work on, but now knowing....and now having evidence to solidify I have been self tormented and belittle by others for so long based on all lies. I don't even know what else to say about all that then what I just said.
Maybe I'm just not to be happy. Not allowed to feel "okay" in my own skin, heart, and soul. Then I also think that all these people that have done me wrong in more ways than one well........they aren't being punished. Why are their sins acceptable? Forgivable or Overlooked?
I will end this rant with a following: Never trust a person that has let you down more than twice. Once was a warning, twice is a lesson, and anything more than that is just taking advantage of you.
Maybe I'm just not to be happy. Not allowed to feel "okay" in my own skin, heart, and soul. Then I also think that all these people that have done me wrong in more ways than one well........they aren't being punished. Why are their sins acceptable? Forgivable or Overlooked?
I will end this rant with a following: Never trust a person that has let you down more than twice. Once was a warning, twice is a lesson, and anything more than that is just taking advantage of you.
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