Life has beyond frustrated me in so many ways. Things that are unexplained....things that don't make sense...things that piss you off and want to puke at the same time....
Where to even begin? I don't even know. I do know that God has definitely pushed my buttons. I don't understand the way He is painting the lives of others here lately. So much doesn't make sense. Bad happening to the good....the bad getting away with whatever they want and living so happily.
I personally haven't been to mass for quite awhile. I haven't lost my faith. I'm just lost in it. I'm confused on what I deserve and what is my purpose. I don't think it would be fair to sit in mass thinking opposite then what I should. Each day passing though its making it even harder to even go back there. I'm sitting with too many questions now wondering "Why?" and it is way too overwhelming. I can't do anything about it though.
My favorite song just started playing on Pandora. "Wish you were here" ~Pink Floyd.
Random how things just flow.
So I'll just be the lost soul as always swimming in a fish bowl.....year after year.
Where to even begin? I don't even know. I do know that God has definitely pushed my buttons. I don't understand the way He is painting the lives of others here lately. So much doesn't make sense. Bad happening to the good....the bad getting away with whatever they want and living so happily.
I personally haven't been to mass for quite awhile. I haven't lost my faith. I'm just lost in it. I'm confused on what I deserve and what is my purpose. I don't think it would be fair to sit in mass thinking opposite then what I should. Each day passing though its making it even harder to even go back there. I'm sitting with too many questions now wondering "Why?" and it is way too overwhelming. I can't do anything about it though.
My favorite song just started playing on Pandora. "Wish you were here" ~Pink Floyd.
Random how things just flow.
So I'll just be the lost soul as always swimming in a fish bowl.....year after year.
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